Hello Dear Reader
well, I've started using my planner, and actually scheduling a time to blog seems like a good idea.
I've had so many compliments this weel from colleagues about how much weight I've lost, and that I've lost it really quickly, it's been quite amusing. I haven't lost it quickly, I've just bought some new trousers that actually fit! Also, I've made the effort to start wearing a bit of makeup again, and it seems I'm a whole new person.
I can't deny that the compliments have given my ego a real boost - I've never had this level of recognition before, so it's gratifying, but, this is my concern;
normally, when anyone starts acknowledging that I look different/slimmer, I stop what I've been doing to get that way and I pile the weight back on. I fear change, I don't like attention about my weight (because I can't handle it) and the thought of looking different kind of scares me. I can remember the first time, many years ago, that I saw my collarbones. I was so freaked out, I immediately put all the weight back on, and more, just to cover them back up. Weird, or what??
So, this time, I'm trying to accept the compliments graciously and just kind of ignore them. Part of me thinks I ought to write them down, so I can read them when I feel I'm getting nowhere, but I don't know. I have to really hold in my mind that I'm doing this for my health, but I am vain enough to want to look good too. Actually, I'd be happy with looking normal, never mind anything else!
The public acknowledgement of the visual changes are a bit of a double edged sword.
What aspects of weight loss success scare you, and how do you deal with it? I really hope someone reads this, because I would genuinely like to know!!
Take care, much love,
Carol
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Carol,
ReplyDeleteI used to be the same way. Here is the thing - who cares about what others think. How do you feel about the changes? If you aren't comfortable - you will self-sabotage. But, if you rephrase the question as to 'what would happen if I continue down this path?' Make it real! Then, ask what would happen if you change - make it compelling; and I mean really compelling - you have leverage over yourself. My sister, you can do this. You know you can!!!!
Hi Tammi! thank you, you're right, it's about making my future changes compelling and getting leverage - very Anthony Robbins! Are you a fan? I'm a huge fan, and I attended a UPW event several years ago. I have also received The Motivation Manifesto that I ordered from Amazon. I've only read a couple of pages, but, my word, what a beautifully produced book! It's like a traditional bound volume, I love it!! thank you for your words of encouragement - I always deeply appreciate them. xxx
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